Complicated Simplicity...

how is it that seeking simplicity

can be so complicated?

wanting tranquility, stability and harmony

no struggles

no turmoil

no worries

how trying to keep life simple

can be such a difficult journey

but well worth it in the end

Pass through...

The brightness shines right at me

Hitting my face with warmth

And moistening my eyes with tears

Gloom shadows surround this light

But no amount of darkness can stop these rays

For there is always a way in

And always a way out

For this light to pass through

These Walls...

get knocked down from time to time

but are rebuilt stronger and thicker each time

difficult to penetrate

difficult to tear down

soon they become opaque, no way of seeing through

until

one day, a new hammer strikes

and the walls come shattering down

and this time

it may be that the walls never need to be rebuilt again

Stone...

If feels like stone
The pulsation no longer exists
so heavy, so sunken
the valves no longer flood, as it has all run dry
the feeling
the feeling will eventually become obsolete

Addicted to this...

Addicted...to this
to you
waking up longing for it, mind doesn't stop thinking about it
lip biting, hand twitching
you tell yourself no more. it has to stop.
but you turn around and get sucked right back into it.
the feeling after, the euphoria.
waiting for the next fix.

distractions...

distractions...
they can take your mind off the real issues temporarily
but not permanently
unless there is persistence, and determination
to forget it, to never remind yourself of it
then maybe, just maybe
the distraction turns into a new longing
a new issue, that may require another distraction for it later on down the road

So alone...

Have you ever felt so alone,

That not even a black hole seemed infinite?

Not even the bluest of skies, and laughter of children could put a smile on your face?

Feeling so desolate, and isolated

Knowing no one could understand or feel

Exactly what you feel

No relation, no acceptance

Diminishing into the darkness

So alone. so alone.